I have thought about it for a long time and I have finally made my decision. I'm leaving Ambrosia for a very long time. I have searched and searched in several communities for happiness and I couldn't find it. There were things happening and I was a direct part of it. I kept digging in myself and I cannot find what I'm looking for. I hope you people can understand how I feel, and I can say this: I never felt a part of Ambrosia, not entirely. For most people I was unknown, but for a few people I was a nice person but sometimes a bit rough in terms of language, behaviour and composure.
I cannot help it but I have to admit that somewhere, away from Ambrosia, I have a family that waits for me on my homecoming. The proces of trying to adapt myself failed and I only have myself to blame for this. I cannot blame everyone but this is the complete truth: "I miss my past and I wish I could do anything to revive it. But only with the help of the family that waits for me I will be able to achieve this." I know happiness is somewhere and, trust me: "If you lose someone, life goes on. Mourning for the loss will leave you scarred, broken and devestated till the end of time itself." I can say I'm broken now. I still cry sometimes in the night for the loses I suffered, and I tried to leave it behind. Someone out there can heal the wounds that have been with me for so long.
If I find happiness I will let you people know this the second I got it. Don't mourn for my departure, let things go on and follow the path you have been given.
To the Emperors: Thank you for creating such a big community and also thank you for letting me getting the taste of it.
To the Server and Forum admins: Thank you for such great times although I wasn't happy
To all other members: Thank you for sharing a place in this community, but that place belongs to someone else now.
I can say this is all. I will not deactivate this account as it allows me to get some news about the latest stuff here.
Until I found my happiness,
Goodbye Everyone of you fantastic members.
Yours Faithfully
Ryu Hayabusa