Listen bro, if thats really true what you say in regards to being locked in a basement etc then you need to speak to some1 theres lots of uk agencies that can change your circumstances e.g childline, samaritans (google them).
Also in the regards to committing suicide, that is not the anwser, to commit suicide is a cowardly act where you lose at the game of life and also hurt every1 close to you.
however;
If these are mindless threats in which somehow you think this would get you admin then im telling you now it wont, and this is not the way to go about it. Im sure everyone on this forum has at some point lost someone close to them and to even joke about this type of thing is sickening and you will get nowhere in life i guarentee with this sort of behaviour.
Anyway regardless, im giving you no support, i repeat the same advice others have given you, stick around and get to know people and then re apply. Dust2 is the most popular server, as a result of this there are many applicants for admin, take on board the advice given to you.
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