It's too late but I was looking for you, Ryu.
Before I was playing, about a year ago I used to see you often. But, all of a sudden you disappeared.
I lost my younger sister. Lost on of my friends too.
I know how it feels like, dude.
I wish you all the best. I really do hope you find someone who can make you happier.
Furthermore, some people may not understand why you took internet and other communities including Ambrosia so serious, it's probably because you were trying to go away from the pain in virtual life. That's what I did when I lost beloved ones.
I really do feel sorry for you, and miss you too.
Wish to see you soon...