In my fortress of solitude
Alone Lonely Loner
It might be tempting to start my story with "I was born in Palestine.. and what so ever" but that is not really where my story begins.
when we were young, we wondered a lot of stuff, we were amazed how small the stars are, how tall the buildings are, how big the sky is, full of clouds, many of us though they were some kind of an ice-cream or maybe a huge cotton pieces that we might be able to walk on, we learned how to eat food, the taste wasn't quite obvious for us, that's why when we were children we only had a few types of food on our favorite list, as we grew bigger and bigger we started to see things more clearly, things we had no clue about are now clearly easy,we discovered more new objects, more new tastes, more new facts, facts that were good, and the older we got the sadder facts we faced. I my self had my start full of fake happiness, since the time I was born, I was taught how to make music, how to walk, how to speak, how to jump, and how to eat, all that was just happiness that was written with pencil to fade out in the near future, my own memories are few, why?, because all the time, I was matrix-ed with people filling me up with happiness and facts that I though they are the once I want, I smiled everyday because I thought that's how life is, and that's the only situation that could ever bring me the biggest amount of happiness to me, until this time, now that I'm half-grown I realized how fool I was to believe this, how fool I am to shut up on what I had to pass through, how unlucky I were ...At the age of 13 I was completely turned into an isolated discrepant boy, I hated everyone at my age, and never thought of making friends and kept doing things came from my own mind and imagination, I was a movie-addicted person, and I used to force my self to believe in all legends insomuch that I lived the turns in real life acting weird not giving a shit to what people might say.
Cramming the Gasp of Anger
whats the point of being a part of this world when you got no choices but being forced to accept everything as it is ?
I took a deep breath and stood to face all people around, I shaved my hair, made some muscles and it was the first time I made a friend 4 years older than me, It was quite uncomfortable for me, but it just drawn I must change. Sometimes you have to accept what life has thrown you to, you either take it as a kind of disease or a sickness that should be treated with some kind of medical condition, or you can just realize how much strong it is and how much unbreakable it could be, should I win this game ... I leave everything and act the way I truly am !
No matter what it takes, no matter how long it takes, I won't give a ****' cuz right now at this moment all I think about is that I'm not going to lie on my self anymore. I took a few steps towards life and started talking to people , visiting coffeehouses , I joined the scout and started working to get some cash for my own entertain, nevertheless I tried to be like others at some points like going to disco's drinking alcohol, but deep inside me I know I'm still young for this and what I really want isn't really what I'm trying to compensates with, much pressure i have kept inside me through the years afraid from the fact that i always considered as an impossible life to live, after all everything was just an experience that i gained where I had to walk blinded through many mistakes.
Music is all arround
all you have to do is listen!
"Sometimes the world
tries to knock it
out of you.
But I believe in music
the way that
some people believe in
fairy tales."
When lot of things turn to happen once and suddenly in not so much time spaces from one to another, all actions made me understand things and then another action pushes me to another questioning. I loved music a lot, I admit that many songs caused me to cry, I started to listen to new types of music, I grew bigger in the conservatory of music, reached high levels in music, and started to look forward to trying more instrument other than the main one which is Piano, music helped me to unleash some stress inside me, I was able to let go my self with music and live the mod in another world away from reality, I realized that the more I learnt music , the more I knew more about my self and the more it helps the more I understand why I'm different, Some times I have that feeling when I admit to start believing my own Persuasion, and stop thinking of what it means in this meantime, I grew up with only one friend and until now I have reached a lot of happiness through my imagination and dreams for long time ago, and I can remember in reality I have achieved nothing !
Cramming the Gasp of Anger
whats the point of being a part of this world when you got no choices but being forced to accept everything as it is ?
I took a deep breath and stood to face all people around, I shaved my hair, made some muscles and it was the first time I made a friend 4 years older than me, It was quite uncomfortable for me, but it just drawn I must change. Sometimes you have to accept what life has thrown you to you either take it as a kind of disease or a sickness that should be treated with some kind of medical condition, or you can just realize how much strong it is and how much unbreakable it could be, should I win this game ... I leave everything and act the way I truly am !
No matter what it takes, no matter how long it takes, I won't give a ****' cuz right now at this moment all I think about is that I'm not going to lie on my self anymore. I took a few steps towards life and started talking to people , visiting coffeehouses , I joined the scout and started working to get some cash for my own entertain, nevertheless I tried to be like others at some points like going to disco's drinking alcohol, but deep inside me I know I'm still young for this and what I really want isn't really what I'm trying to compensates with, much pressure i have kept inside me through the years afraid from the fact that i always considered as an impossible life to live, after all everything was just an experience that i gained where I had to walk blinded through many mistakes.
*Sigh* Unzips
Im so sorry for doing this Santa, this came into my mind when I read it through ;-;
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Life has thrown you to, not thrown on you, :D omg koray u madr my day :D ahahahahahahahahah